Pandora's Box

I think a lot recently. I don’t mean to become your burden. I am so sorry.

Even though I can’t change the world, I should change myself. People can’t decide their lives, but they can broaden their knowledge. I shouldn’t always ask the world or other people give something, but I should ask myself what I can make contributions for the society like my dissertation. I make up my mind that I don’t want to focus on these unimportant matters but concentrate on more meaning things, such as my studies and dissertation. More important, I also need to learn more how to deal with my sad emotion and upset feeling. I know the transformation effect from psychological theory; when I am sad, I should find something to do to make better. And, when I cry, I try to smile as well.

I don’t care whether I can apply the exchange programme any more. I am disappointed at unfairness, and even the world. I don’t want to argue anything any more. The world still doesn’t change. Even though I suggest or argue some things, it isn’t still useful.

I hate the world. I am so small that I cannot change anything. I try to say something, but no one can hear my voice.